Sometimes your best effort of today is only 5% of the best effort of the day before.
And you know what? As long as YOU know it's your best, what more can anyone ask of you?
We don't live a perfect, John Norman-created world where kajirae have nothing to do but be pleasing and perform domestic chores. Nope, we get stuck with a world of having uncooperative spouses, wailing children, endless bills, and nearly insurmountable stress. After the chores of the RT day, VT chores begin to feel like insant replay. And then a few really "special" people have illness, deaths in the family, and/or emotional traumas added to the entire unhealthy mix.
So if your best of today is 5% of your "best" when you first walked into MTC, we'll love you just the same... And if you need to walk in as an ooc chanz, please... take the time you need for your heart's ease and the companionship and love you need as a PERSON... When your heart is whole and your mind is free, then your soul can again wear slavery's chains....