Tim, you should never share that which Scott and you spoke of, that is between Brothers/Trues as it should be. I knew in my heart of hearts that if either woobie or Scott left first, the other would follow shortly behind, as they were bonded in a way that was beautiful and pure. I still struggle with their loss, perhaps in time it might lessen, but the hole they both left behind, that will never cease. The memories made in the time we all got to spend with him, will be forever treasured and wish there was a way to write them down into a book to share with others who come after. Show where we started, how we forged into the future and how the Legacy of Gor was made.
Time has been odd for me in the past 6 months, losing a cherished friend woobie 6 months ago, then my dad 3 months later, then losing Scott/Ragnar whom I considered more than just my brother in Gor, but as well as in real time. He was there when my life was being twisted and turned uncontrollably, leaving me to flounder and flail. Scott was able to reach me, showing me that there was more to explore and experience then what I was wanting to do. He in a way saved me, when I was about to give up. I grew so much while I was in MTC, not the best times at the end, but they were of my own making, during a time that I was too emotional to see what was really in front of my face. For that, I hold a lot of regret, but the bridges were being mended and we were speaking once more. That's all I could have wished for, but the true wish I had, was that he would no longer be in pain, that he could do what he wanted without anything to stop him. *smiles fondly*
I see him walking through fields of wild flowers, woobie at his side, hearing both of them laughing and feel their love growing stronger as they reconnect their bond together. No more pain for either of them. The reunions with those who went before, the ones who he considered family and gave him the love of Gor are there with him, including KnightStorm's Dawn. One day soon, hopefully not too soon, we will all see one another again. Be showered by his love, his kindness and best of all his laughter.
I will miss you Scott, but I thank you for allowing me into your life and for showing me that we all belong somewhere. Enjoy your infinite time with the love of your life, woobie, no more worries, no more pain, just love and laughter.
