she has sat many hours, wondering, if the fires will return. she has sat wondering, if she did the right thing, bringing dreamy back. she has yet to find the answers. she has tried to be in camp, but has asked herself, why? she cannot find whatever it is within her, that drove her for so long. the simplest thing, of offering to serve, is no longer the simplest thing. she has so many doubts that are smothering the fires of her slave belly. she has thought over so many times, the comment that was made to her, that, she should have thought about it more before returning to MTC. the thing she asks herself over and over again, is, what good is a slave with no fire that burns within her? she cannot answer that either. many have said dreamy is loved, dreamy is wanted in camp, dreamy will find the fires again and to have patience. tears cloud her eyes and clouds shadow her heart. like the brittle winter grasses, with no life left in them, they exist, and so does dreamy.