-Shoko moved into the Medwagon, her footsteps slow as she made her way back towards the Med Log, once she reached the desk she removed her heavy cloak tossing it over the stool setting there, she was freshly healed and was just now able to move without pulling the freshly scarred skin on her abdomen-
-the other healers take little notice of Shoko, even thougt she has been absent for a time she was alwasy welcome in the healers wagon, she picks up something to write with and finds a place in the book to mark down what she needs to-
Born- First Daughter of Terran & Shoko
-Shoko smiled thinking of her life, it played out like a fairytale, falling in love, the subsquent FC between her and Terran, and eventually becomming pregnant with the child everyone always refered to as "squirt". she had not meant to be in the outer wagons when she had fallen and hurt her leg, being forced to stay in the outer wagons was not what she wanted to do, but seeing as she was ready to burst she had relented.
Death- Young Daughter, still unnamed- age, mere hours old.
-every day Shoko had felt that mass of life moving around in her belly, and every day she expectantly waited for the day that the little girl growing inside of her would come out to meet the world.-
-She knew soemthing was wrong when one day she noticed that her child was not moving around like normal, she would have claimed that her child was unusually lethargic, but when she made her way into the outer circles med wagon she had no time to ask the million questions she wanted to, admist the wounded men, and the children with injuries from slipping on the snow she went into labor.-
-the labor had gone badly for the small woman, after several hours of labor the healers said that the childs heartbeat was becomming weaker, surgury to remove the baby would be risky but nessisary if the child was too big to pass natrually. Shoko had agreed right away, even if it would kill her, all she wanted to do was to hear her baby cry, and to give her child the best chance at life that she could.-
-the procedure was a success, but sadly the baby never cried, Shoko held her child and asked her, even begged her to cry, but alas her beautiful child never made a sound, just laying in her arms peacefully, while she sat admiring her childs cherub like features, her mothers dark hair, her fathers bright blue eyes, but as her child closed her eyes to peacefully sleep Shoko knew her child would not live thought the night.-
-call it a mothers instinct, or call it a healers knoldge but no matter what knowing your child had passed away in your arms was still heart breaking, all her dreams of the greatness her baby would become were smashed, all hopes of her childs happyness blown away in the wind. the fancy dress shoko had made for her child to wear when she first met the rest of the childs family instead became the dress her child would wear for her pyre, sadly only hours after sending someone to tell Terran the news of their childs birth she had to send him word of his childs death.-
-she healed slowly, her utter devistating depression caused the healers to sedate her for several days, eventually her body would heal, the insision becomming little more then a pink scar across her skin, her depression was severe, she would not eat for days at a time, and was heard for hands humming the blue sky song-
-there were days when she felt okay and then there were days when she wanted to do nothing more then to pick a direction and walk out into the wilderness aimlessly and let the land comsume her, while once she had worried about being able to loose the baby weight now she wondered if she would ever again look as healty as she had when she had first gotten pregnant, now the light from her eyes was gone, her pale jade orbs had become dull and every day she looked more and more like a living skelton-
-she had been so distraught that the healers had kept her secluded to a private section of the med wagon, there was always a slave there to watch her to make sure that she did no harm to herself, slowly she begain the process of healing mentally-
-Last night she dreamed of Momma, dreamed about momma watching her baby up in the endless skys and she felt at peace for the first time in a long time, so today she decided to come home to the inner circle-
-she wipes away the tears from her eyes and after writing the info about her cessarian in her medical logs she takes a deep breath gathering her cloak and heading out into the snow-
