Brandy/Nexhias, our beloved Ubara and Sister has passed away this evening at 12:02 am.
I simply wanted to write down my feelings at the moment.
Brandy/Nexhias...
As stoic as I may seem online or for those that know me in real life, as indifferent and full of dry sarcasm I am filled with, at this time, this moment, I am filled with a pain. My vision is clouded, my throat becomes tight and my heart aches with every beat. WE as a family here in MTC, have lost one of our own, we have lost you. You played a major role here in MTC and you played a major role in our lives. When you first went off to serve your country, we spoke and I knew you would return. My faith in you was only exceeded in your determination to prove the odds wrong. Your personality outshined any dismal moment you had and no matter what, you always found your way back home to us. Im not a religious man but I know God has called you home to Him. You have earned your place at His side, free from pain, from anguish and finally found your peace. I can only hope that your family finds peace also in the knowledge that you are in a better place, a happier place and I know that you will make that place a brighter one.
My heart goes out to anyone and everyone that shares the sadness I have at your loss. I will remember your laughter most of all. It was something that said no matter the situation you faced, the inevitability of pain you faced, you could always find something positive in it and freely gave that laughter to share with all of US. It is something that hurts and yet it does make me happy at the same time. To loose you but knowing you deserve to be free. I know that you will always be with us, but that doesnt stop the pain for any of us, not at this moment. So perhaps it is a sadness not for you but for us, that someone so special and dear, someone so loved has left us and it is a vacancy that will never be filled. It is your place and we will keep it forever. You have touched all our lives in more ways than one and loosing you feels like a crushing blow. We love you, we miss you, we will miss you, we will remember you always and know that though your light has gone out, the brightness you provided, will always be here to help light our way in this world. I only hope I have done the memory of you some small bit of justice as no words can paint the grand picture of who you are.
By the Skies, please be happy and may angels sing your name in Heaven and watch over you.
We love you.
Tim/Raziel