To me, the moment I 'arrived' in the BDSM/SFD/Webmaze online world (16 odd years ago now) seems like yesterday. I was nervous and a little insecure. To be honest, for a guy who could never be malicious to a woman, I was also quite scared of the thoughts which tumbled through my mind, arousing it (well, you girls say a man's brain is in his lower, central, external appendage). Nevertheless, the people I met in SFD, and in Webmaze, opened my eyes, and helped me to accept what I was, in the knowledge that there were others who needed the company of those such as me... A Dom, as I discovered.
Subsequently, the passions, the intrigue, and the love of those people who became close to me, helped me to grow in confidence, and become the complete and utter BASTARD that I am now! ~LOL Urrrm, that was a joke! Stop nodding your heads!~. They were all loved in return; acquaintances, cherished friends, and lovers. Oh, and gentlemen... When I say 'lovers', I don't mean you! We were just 'good friends' OK?!?!
One finds that, despite the passing years, and the distances involved, in the world of online association and love (not to mention Domination and submission), nothing changes much, except our attitudes and our expectations. We always strive to better ourselves, and to cultivate our skills, such that we can facilitate a greater depth of experience for those who become special to us. But, in that process of growth, we change, and our needs can become disparate with those of the people we care about. Therefore, I say to anyone who reads this, anyone who cares, that is... Remember the people who shaped you, who stirred you into action, who heightened your experience, be it as Dom or sub. Remember the good times, and the fun. Remember the love. But ensure that you do not dwell on the negatives, other than to file in the library of experience, to learn from and grow. Never allow bitterness to grip your mind, nor steer your actions; for if you do, it is only you who will suffer. <-- Pious, maybe... But practical.
To anyone I know/knew, in whatever capacity, I pray the years between then, and this day hence, are full of happiness, kindness, and fulfillment, in the ways that are special to you. Each an every one of you is special to me, because you helped to deepen my knowledge and experience of the D/s world... A world that I now know, and understand. A world that I could not live without.
Thank you, one and all.
Now, go forth, and multiply ~G~
Broadsword aka Helleck
