dakota,
I think that this is a wonderful idea..... and I have two reasons for posting here.....
1. I think that this is a beautiful idea and want to see it prosper.
2. I had something to share too!
and I have to get a little background...... I wrote this poem a few years ago...... I was still in high school...... it was when I was writing lots of poetry and I had gone through a troubling period with My best friend who was Male and couldnt see the potential happiness in front of his face.........
I cried alot while writing this poem and its not based on fact but on feeling........
(Also please pardon the grammar mistakes....... I already spell checked it so it should be fine there)
YOUR STUPID MISTAKE
The words ive longed to say,
are bitter on my tongue.
the life that eludes me,
the life that i want the most,
is the life i've dreamt of having with you.
i want to wake up next to you,
again and again.
let me love you gently.
please
do you remember the times you held me?
when i cried?
you never knew....
i cried over you.
there is no excuse for,
for that night,
a memory we'll both hold tight.
i knew i had too many,
two, too many drinks,
under my belt.
that night.....
we argued over nothing.
when i fell into your arms,
we just, fit togther.
i think.....
i think that was the moment i knew,
i knew you surrendered,
i knew i could have you.
when your mouth crushed mine,
i could feel your pain and suffering.
i wanted to take it all away.
a little while later you told me,
as we lay drunkenly stupid,
with passion and pleasure,
you told me,
that you would love me eternally.
i woke to the sunlight's first beams,
gently spraying across your back.
your careless embrace keeping me warm,
as the crisp spring air toyed with your hair.
i could still taste you on my lips.
i could have lingered in that moment forever,
with your breath on my neck.
i came crashing down to earth,
when you awoke.
you kissed me sleepily and realized,
realized that you let me get too close.
you would'nt let yourself love me,
and we had just pledged our love,
Mind, Body, and Soul.
when you walked away,
i felt my heart rip,
with every step you took.
i wanted to run after you.
i would have lied to you,
laid my life on the line,
to keep you there.
to tell you...
i'm capable of loving you.
that we could work it out...
togther.
but no, i stayed,
letting your taste linger on my tounge,
it's now like venom in my throat.
the thought of you loving me,
then calmly walking away,
now when i see you,
i feel the bile churn in my stomach.
not because i've lost you,
but because you lost yourself,
you brought this punishment,
on to you.
somehow it seems you like crying,
without someone to hold you.
you like stepping on your own heart.
you seem like you truly enjoy.....
living a miserable life,
soaking in your sorrows,
and wallowing in your own self pity.
instead of letting someone who loves you,
smile at your imperfections,
and balance your impurities.
you,
my truest love,
my soul mate,
whom i loathe and despise.
just one more thing,
even if you don't let me in,
let me be a part of you.
i'll be there,
haunting you,
chipping at your soul.....
waiting,
begging you to....
to tell me,
tell me you love me again.
