If that wasn't a loaded question! Where in the world could I possibly begin? -pops a knuckle, n thinks a moment-. This is a long one. Don't expect anyone to truly take the time to read this monster out. If you do? Then understanding a bit more on whos behind "Sara" would definitely be here. I've never typed out something like this before. So this is definitely the only time I actually took a moment(or 20) to really type out....um...it.
Lets see....
I began the irc rp a frelling long time ago. I sort of got into it? But it just did not seem to be enough for me. I craved more from rp, and needed more. I was in a boarding school in *cough1994cough*. When I tried the irc. Then in the computer lab, a friend of mine had discovered a chat site. We marveled at it. It was L 'Hotel Chat, and it was on a hosting site we all now know as Geo shitties.
Anyways. I gathered up the persona ~*Capricorn(f)*~/and/~*Black Diamond*~. Obviously I was underage, as my age corresponds with the year. (14). Though I mostly went in for conversation. Then I'd found in one of the rooms. People were making up names, and playing characters? Curiosity got the best of me. Mainly because of the aspect of having "av's", and "typing out actions" along with the text? So. I created a name ~*Laedy Chaos*~, and the ball began to roll from there. ((I wound up moving back to Hong Kong, so I got away with being underage. Cause I played 'late at night' in everyone else's time..woot.lol))
The room that the ones were playing in? I lost interest because it became all about their cybering. So I looked around the elevator buttons in HC, and looked for a quiet spot to be. Yeaaa. I jumped into the Couplet with a group of like 4 others, and stuck to the room like glue. Mainly because our characters had a wicked laugh at killing off the Butlers. -laughs-. (ahh memory lane). The character Chaos grew into something much larger than I'd expected. Memory's of the rp's I had with that char, and still to this day have from time to time? Was and will always be wicked ones, for the lack of better words..
Online role play became an escape for me. From the trials, tribulations, and general bullshit of real life. Acting out a character who could very sufficiently vent out her anger. In turn it helped me deal pretty much.
So. My computer got hacked, and I was offline for awhile. Came back briefly, and it just wasn't the same. Mayjor aspect in the rp with this one char had dramaticly changed. It not only broke my own heart, but the heart that adored and loved to just simply Role Play. So I stopped. Couldn't handle it at all. I just simply dropped off the Radar from friends and everyone online in an instant..
Then my life had mayjor changes hit all at once. Things I'm so not boring anyone with here. It involves the death of one I considered to be my soul mate, and best friend ever... (as if this long post wasn't enough to read). So I made a new ooc name for myself, and pretty much hid. When and if I did rp. It was usually always a new room every week. I kept searching for a place to belong. I decided to try and locate old friends (because most didn't use icq anymore, and i was gone when the big Msn switch happened). I'd dropped into a room or two in maze hearing that's were some of the othe rplayers had gone to... Club Kindred briefly, and Vampire Renegades even briefer. It was like I couldn't find people who I really could mesh with in rp, and then began to feel like some weird outsider who no one knew or gave a shit about. Not like my old friends had anyways..
tick tock tick tock. Time passed again. I'd gone into a room on maze(which will so not be mentioned here. ugh). It filled up quickly with players, and was actually really fun at first. But shit hit the fan because I refused to be treated like shit period. the char was Chaos' daughter. One of a set of twins. The absolute horrific shit I had to endure from that experience forever changed me as a player.
So I went to Mydnight Dreamz. I absolutely, wholeheartedly, and completely re-fell-in-love with online rp all over again. Every time I played in there was an absolute blast! Though I needed to get away from ooc shit starters from other unnamed room. I was being harassed, and badly. So. I opened my own room. It remained open for a few years. Unfortunately, it just got very very screwed up. By the time I had closed the room. I'd shed far far too many tears, and felt so much heartache. My dream had failed, and I lost one of the best friends I'll have ever had online. -wipes eyes, coughs-. So no details on this, or i'm going to start cryin again.
So I went underground again((touched base with 'secondlife' and luv it)), tick tock tick tock. My r/t life exploded in a cluster fuck frenzy. I wound up befriending Amber((we are the most unlikely 2 people to wind up friends. But that's another story entirely..lol luffs ya -hug-)) and I started a chat site design for a contest(which was another dream of mine since I first started in Hotel Chat). During the design. I had a long long time friend who I love to death? Begin to bug me about Gor. Oh, I thought I knew 'everything' about it and I Hated even the thought of it. Threw shit fit's when friends even tried to mention it to me. Would even go into rants about it along with other rants I used to be pretty well known for..lolz.
Though this friend approached me differently. I was so against it, wont lie. But I was curious.... What drove them to *gag* play in Gor? I would jump in Tuchuk and watch in my regular ooc name(I hate nonys...a lot). I would talk to Ragnar in pm. Cause well. He knows first hand some of the events that happened, was a target of my rage at one point....and still hearts me anyways!?
((Which I am sooo grateful for, thanks bro!!..-snug snug-))
So Terran,Wapike,Ragnar......All three of those guys pestered me. Beat me down, and dragged me in kicking and screaming about how lame Gor was, and that I hated it and etc etc. But after some time? I thought "Oh fine. This will shut them up when I try it, hate it, and will leave anyways.".....BOY WAS I WRONG!!. I not only could play a FW, and avoid being a slave to be killed in record time?...I got help bringing out the idea for this char, which is so easy for me to play...
I love it. Playing in Tuchuk? I believe was the kind of rp family type situation I had been looking for............................For a very long time. It's healing the rp wound in my heart, and breathed life back into an old, and broken down Rp'er.
What keeps me coming back? Simple. I have friends who I know, and absolutely ADORE here. Meeting others within the room who are so funny, and creative....Everything. This room has a heart, and a closeness that I have not seen anywhere else online. This is what I'd always wanted in rp. -wipes eyes again-..
So I love this new experience.
Thank you to those who brought me in from the bottom of my heart. Then more thank you's to the ones I didn't know, who have been so very welcoming and funny..
To sum up my answer? "whee Tuchuck ROCKS!"...
((If you took the time to actually read this? Thank you, -nods-. First 2 people to pm me get av's, just for taking the moment from their life to read it. I feel honored, truly.... :-* ;D :-*))