where have i been? well, after my father passed i took a long hiatus and lost internet for a long time. then i had a massive stone in my gall bladder and kidney stones on top of that. the gall bladder got to come out the day after Christmas and the kidney stones came out with the help of diloted or however its spelled. so recovering from that surgery, the love of my life, Bobby Smith passed away January 18, 2009 of a heart attack at age 31. i had a breast reduction february 6th which went bad as the doctor didnt clean the piercings and my nipples abcessed and died. i then broke up with Bres (which only a few know i was with) and somehow ended up back here! greetings F/family? *cowers*