I will be in Camp more, but, for at least till the end of this month, expect me to be somewhat quiet. I have been very stressed out this month, which probably has somethign to do with why I've been so sick. We have given our roomate Donnie an ultimatum. he is 4 months behind on his rent, I've been having to buy his smokes, he uses my shampoo, toothpaste, etc, I buy him beer, and well.. it had to stop. I have stopped buying him anything, and he has to produce at LEAST ddecember's rent by the end of the month or he has to find somewhere else to live. As of today, he has paid a whole 50 bucks. Rent is 300. Somehow I don't see him making it.
he has reacted to this by being somewhat sullen that I have refused to buy him things anymore, he spends most of his time away from the house, and when he is here, he spends as little time in my presense as he can. if you were to ask him, he would deny this, and would tell you how much he cares about me and how I'm his best friend. The fact remains, you do not treat your best friend like this. you don't get 4 months in debt and assume your friend will just continue to let you mooch off them without even trying to help out around the house in payment. My bike is still in pieces from when he was planning on changing the clutch but ran out of money before he could actually BUY the clutch. In short, I'm stressed, and I feel like I've been taken advantage of. it's not a good feeling. the only rt friend I have ever had that HASN'T screwed me over is my husband. How sad is that. I'm trying to distance myself, to not think of him as my friend anymore.. but he has been friends with me for 4 years... it's hard. Especially since he lives here.
Fortunately, Hubby comes home on thursday. Donnie is intimidated by hubby so I'm hoping things will get better.. if nothing else I'll have a very strong supporter in my corner that I can lean on, because I have a feeling things are going to get bad. I don't think he honestly believes we will kick him out if he doens't have the money. I am positive he thinks that if he makes excuses about how he didn't get enough hours but that the hours are supposed to pick up in Jan, that we will give in. He's already making those noises about his hours.
So right now, whenI end up snapping over something that isn't reallya big deal, or when I go off the deep end and say things, be patient and know that I don't really REALLY mean it... that I'm just so stressed that any little thing throws me off and I over react to the situation. And Rags, that especially includes the stuff I said in Q the other week. I've been trying to deal with this onmy own, and not take it out on my Family, or vent on my Family, and I ended up taking it out anyway and I'm sorry. It's one of the reasons why I haven't been coming into Camp much.
Love you all
Kitya aka Kiersten
