If you werent there, shut the hell up.

[Raziel]

There has been enough stupid heresay going on about this and that.  Things were said, things were done, opinions were given, advice was had and decisions made.  Guess what?  If you werent there, didnt actively participate, dont truly know what really happened, then shut the hell up and keep your non-existent ass wherever its been for the last few weeks, months, year.  All you are doing is adding to the bullshit drama, when you honesly couldnt have a clue if I gave you the answer to begin with.  But I will give you this answer.  It's done.  Its over.  Its gone.  Sayonara.  See you later.  Bugger off.  Drop dead.  Finis.  Fuck you very much.  Kiss my ass.  Goodbye kinda deal.  You dont like it, so what, your opinion really doesnt matter when the case is closed.  Not like you were here, not like you know, not like you were very active to begin with.  So, keep your ass right where you have been keeping it.  Off these boards and on the inactive list of deadbeats.

Raz

[RAGNAR]

LMTAO

Tell us how you really feel True!!!

[DaPaleOne]

-leans in and sharpens the claws and fangs-....and here they are letting you carry firearms...sheesh..silly people..lol

[prism {*RgR*1*}]

shut the hell up and keep your non-existent ass wherever its been for the last few weeks, months, year.

*beams*
Hell yeah!

[Huntress]

Dittos what Rags said.....

[flame{NS}]

hears the tone and really means HEARS the tone... as she runs and hides...thinking Master is right as usual... but still runs and hides..covers her ass as well oh wait... thinks what about the hair.. oh gods i am in trouble...

[Amber]

-as usual is clueless as to what brought this on, but leaves two thumbs up in agreement before skidaddling away-

[Ayelen]

Well it's a good thing to finally learn that I am a deadbeat.  Thank you for clearing up that confusion.  Now I can sleep at night.

~scratches my head~

[RAGNAR]

Well it's a good thing to finally learn that I am a deadbeat.  Thank you for clearing up that confusion.  Now I can sleep at night.

~scratches my head~

I did not see your name mentioned in this post.

To be able to see yourself so clearly as to warrant such a response would indicate a definitive feeling of self-reflection.

I wish you well.

[Ayelen]

Well it's a good thing to finally learn that I am a deadbeat.  Thank you for clearing up that confusion.  Now I can sleep at night.

~scratches my head~

I did not see your name mentioned in this post.

To be able to see yourself so clearly as to warrant such a response would indicate a definitive feeling of self-reflection.

I wish you well.

Considering I was placed on the "inactive" list.. and being there is only one inactive list... compounded by the statement of deadbeats included with said inactive list... the sum of the variables equalled only one conclusion to arrive at.

I don't need self-reflection thank you ~s~  but I'm sure that are many that do need to do exactly that.  I however am perfectly at peace with myself and with my life.  I ended a character that was just not worth to try to revive for many reasons.  I never said I was leaving MTC however... yet I was quickly ushered out the door. 


So much for family.

[Raziel]

Ah my dear Char, you of all people should know better than that.  This post was in no way a reflection of you.  It was meant however to those who simply wish to join a wagon rolling by, without a hinderance of a clue as to what really happened and what was really said.

Assumptions are the mother of all fuck ups.  Char, it is clear you feel a lack of love from us and by no means is it meant that way.  I do believe that most of us are a bit....shocked....to say the least.  And to find out it was a long thought out process, well, I am still at a loss of words as to how I feel about it, for I for one, had no clue whatsoever, that there was an issue you were having to begin with.  You see, this whole inactive deadbeats thing, well, it is certainly not about you as I see you more active here on the boards, as well as even a few times in camp and an active participant to our rt activities.  No no no, I mean those people you see once in a blue moon, that happen to pop up one day and say hi, then disappear, not even a word from them on the boards.  They are about as active on the boards as they are in the home.

So, no Char, this was most certainly not directed towards you and Im apologize you feel that way.  You are as dear to me now as you have ever been and I am actually greatly troubled to be loosing you in camp.  No one ever ushered you out the door but that may be a misunderstanding or assumptions of people here because as history would tell us, once characters are shelved, communications simply die off and the individual, utterly stays out of touch.  So that might be an assumption on our part but none ever "ushered" you out the home.

Now if you also recall, a revamping of the website is underway, so to view it as a sum of the variables, is completely a false conclusion based on passed unassociated issues.

We do love you, its just hard to see YOU so at unease as to shelve.  But WE do wish you happiness in whatever chat realm or style you do find, and if you so choose to come back later, then even better, but to loose a name so long associated with MTC, is just....heart wrenching.  I do hope this clarifies matters for you, if not, please, let me know.

Raz

[kadi{MTC}]

Char kadi misread your post and for that she is very sorry, kadi nor the person behind her wants to see you go it came as a shock to read that talena was shelving, no more licking of honey covered talenas lol i would love you back as another person char be it slave or free, we had some good times in camp sis and i for one have missed them and you, now im waffleing on thats what meds do for ya lol i love you hun always have always will

kadi xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

[RAGNAR]

Char,

Just so there is no mistake.  You were not ushered out of anywhere. I do feel you have been inactive, and we have spoke of your return on many occasions.

You are welcome to try again in Tuchuk provided the unnecessary drama and games being played cease.

If unable to do so, then perhaps it is in the best interest of all concerned if you do leave. I will not place my personal feelings above the needs and welfare of my Tuchuk family as a whole.

Your call.

I wish you well.

[Ayelen]

Rags,

I most certainly agree I have been inactive.  When you no longer "feel" your character, when it's too painful to "be" that character, then it has it's validation of not wanting to play that character.  It wasn't an easy decision to close that book in the life of talena; it took a long time to do so. 

Too, when you work 9+ hours a day sitting at your computer, to come home and sit at another computer just ... to be cheesey ... doesn't compute ~grins~   Even then, my evenings are early, my weekends varied.

Games and drama?  I simply posted that I no longer was playing the part of talena.  And I posted to you about the motel bill; it wasn't until this past Friday that I got it settled with the motel owner and wanted to alert you in case you were having problems as well.  As far as what's been going on within MTC, I haven't even been around to be a part of it. 

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no worries, no apologies needed darling.  ~hugs tight~  I loves my kadi and well, you can just think that talena where-ever she is, misses all those kadi licks ~lol~

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Raz,

I appreciate your post very much.  ~smiles~   Indeed misunderstandings have even caused wars.   And yes, it clarifies as well.  Thank you my dear Raz. 

It's not so much that I felt a lack of love for me, per se, but because I am, and will continue to be, friends with those who are no longer friends or family of this home.  I'm sorry to see it.

However.... I had long ago decided that it was time to put talena to her rest.  I know it was heart wrenching and difficult for many, but surprisingly, it was quite easy for me.  For me, talena had just never recovered, and it was more heart wrenching and uneasy for me to play talena, than to wrap her up in silks and soft pillows and set her on that rocker next to that man who had said one day, he was coming back, and then disappeared without a word.  Perhaps not playing talena, it can ease the hurt and concern that the man behind Sirius found life to unbearable to continue it. 

I am ... happier ... now without that burden of talena.  It's like a huge weight has been lifted from me. 

My other realms home is gone, it was a loss to see a friend again taken away forever and we had all agreed to let that home go; it wasn't the same without him. 

But my char there, I have adapted to Gor; same persona, with a few minor changes (or is that major? she was a dragon after all ~chuckles~). 

I'm not sure my char would fit well within MTC; she is definitely .. not talena ... ~lol~  but at this point it's moot, as I'm currently involved in a situation in which my char is a captive, though not out-right noticeably so.  A rather intriguing roleplay to say the least.

[RAGNAR]

Good luck! *S*