A great number of things have changed in my life in the past year both VT and RT. At first glance it all seems to be bad so why give thanks for that? Well because things usually happen for a reason.
I lost MTC as a Home for one reason only and it was I betrayed my Home. I wish I could undo it but I can't and I can not come back betray a Family and forgiveness is not going to come. I just will not sneak back in I cannot do that it is a worse thing in my eyes then my leaving. I cannot and will not lie to Ragnar. The love of a family is not to be toyed with. That was a hard lesson.
To lose someone close despite everything you have done may well be something that will never heal I lost my Grandma this year after caring for her the best I knew how to do with many that helped. I just hope she is someplace where she is happy. She never knew I was on Gor but then she never asked me. I learned so much from her in RT and she taught me what it is to be a FW.
Be respectful but not a doormate and be open and honest with myself what ever may come of it. Perhaps knowing her she would have been a Panther all I know is she only answered to one person and I know their reunion had to be Something very special.
So what has all this taught me and why am I thankful.
First the love of Family is the most important gift a person can have, never betray that.
Second listen to those wiser and take their advice, think don't just jump in with both feet.
Third somethings you just have no control over, things have a way of working out given time. And you don't always win.
Forth be kind to all that breaths, things sent out will come back with a vengeance it is hard to smile truly smile if there is hate in the heart.
Fifth never give up if you are wrong say so and learn from that and go on.
I wish for each of you a wonderful Thanksgiving and a Joyous time with your Families and Friends.
And may what lessons you learn in RT and on Gor rest easy on you.
A wayward Daughter of Tuchuk's
Marylynn
