*Curled up on the couch, sipping coffee, thinking over things that have gone down over the past couple of weeks. Trying to sort things through in my mind. Work is going well. Denny has been great as usual. I couldn't ask for a better boss. That part of my life seems to be the only that doesn't give me any surprises.
As for the rest of my life. It's gotten to be a mess. Cody Boyd is in town. It seems he's setting up an office in the city. Which would be fine if he would keep his business to himself. But unfortunately he knows way to much about my past. I don't know what he wants me to do for him. It's got to be illegal otherwise he wouldn't ask. I didn't stay around to find out. He asked me what would Declan think if he knew about my past. It was a threat, and I threw it back in his face. I won't go back to being a mule for anyone. Cody isn't into drugs so I don't think it was that. But I don't want to know what it is. I don't need the problems or any amount of money he would offer.
Cody made good on his threat. I got a call from Dec last friday night. He'd gone looking for me at Mahoney's not knowing that I don't work most fridays night. He called from there saying he had to talk to me and it would be better if it was at my place if it was alright if he came over. I told him he was always welcome. When he got here I could tell something was up. He was to serious when he came in the door and when an Irishman lets his Guinness sit so he can talk, you know you better be listening and listening well. What it came down to was that Cody called him, but didn't tell him his name just hinted around about my past and how he might be interested in it.
Needless to say he was and there was no getting around it. I told him. I didn't make excuses for what I did, just told him what drove me to do it. That still didn't make it right and I know that. He did to some extent defend Sean and Hamish for their part in the IRA which I always understood. But made no comment about their scheme to raffle me off to the enemy that gave them the most good information. There was no point. Their both dead and beyond his reach.
He also repeat to me what Da always said about drugs. I hadn't forgotten it. Just pushed it to the back of my mind. What I did wasn't right and I expected Dec to disown me. But I should have known better. He has always taken care of me when he could. Taken the blame for the killing of Cabe the man that murdered Catherine in the subway, as he held a gun to Molly's head. Never telling the FBI I had even been there. I don't know why he still cares. He's moved on in his life, as it should be. *shaking my head* I don't understand it, but I treasure it. He told me to call him if Cody called me again and that he is going to have some his friend look into his past. I did tell him what I knew about Cody and his brother. Also about the shooting of Carl Cameron in the park. Giving him the shell casing the cops missed that I found at where I thought the shooter had to be standing when he was shot.
He left after that. I didn't know how much I missed him and how nice it was to have him to lean on at times. Will see what happens next.
Other news. Vanessa's body was found in the warehouse downtown and Denise's purse. God I hope she's still alive. I've to do some thinking about all this before I decide what to do*
