update on the home front*sighs*

[Mysta]

wow...god...today, at least, has been the only day in about a month where it hasnt felt like ive had an iron band wrapped about my chest, and chest pains....i guess...we need partial vacations as well...

after two semi violent incidents, involving her against the BABy...the autistic baby.,,,,i called the cops right out....
they came out, and out came more, and out came more..i was like dizzy..and said.."dude, shes 15, and were not in a hostage situation, are you guys just bored or what?"

so, lex went to stay at dads till katie could, as partial punishment, cleam up some of her mess....
then...the sullenness...the lying on the net to her dad and HIS gf...and, them getting worried cause they couldnt reach ME..and, me walking up the drive to be accosted by several MORE cops...
they got her dad and his gf on the phone, read back all the allegations, and, she had tp say, "no, thats not true...no, i didnt mean that one"....the cops were about as frustrated as i was, and threatened to take her to jail for a false report...
after a talk with her, a calm one...i said.."where would you like to go, really? you tell them you want to be there, and you tell me, you want to be here"....you dont have to make us both happy, hun, just...say it....

So, shed asked to go back to her dads...BUT....
*mutters* shoulda let him croak..no, kidding
I stepped in, heard the sound in her fathers voice...how he hadnt been sleeping, had had chest pains and has diabetes really bad...i told h im, you know...this isnt the way...and, you dont have the strength to deal with this...I do..and, I WILL do it...so, rest"

So, i told her..."youre not a delinquent kid to be passed back and forth every time something happens, as if youre unloved....i will not do that...,i will not just pass you off and say deal with her"....
So, i told her, she was staying here, for the timebeing, and, got her to agree to sign in(the have to sign the,selves in) to a inpatient, diagnostic thingy....


I can actually breathe today....and, talked to her and one of the doctors....shes ben more forthcoming with info, theyre going to try some meds, and, get a meeting with me and her pretty soon...its horrible that she has to miss lil lexies b day...on the 23rd...but, can make up for it later*S*

so...with cops swarming....kids doing stuff...and, my body seeming to turn on itself....literally...
i just wanted to walk out in the desert, and kep going for a while....

[RAGNAR]

hang in there and never quit.

[Mysta]

todays day three of her being in there....and i had to work yesterday so i couldnt talk to er...
the second day of her being in there, and, after giving her dad and his gf the passcode number that would allow them to talk to her, during each ten minute phone call they get each day,....

he calls me up, all angry and enraged...(shed manipulated him a good one and hit on emotional nerves)

he said, she cried to him, said she wanted to go home, and, that id tricked her, promised her that shed be in there one night, if that, and then have her on a plane the next day so 'she could come home" and he was about to try to fight me to get her out of there, till i reminded him of her other stories he keeps forgetting about.....and that i indeed had 100 percent custody and jurisdiction, signed and relinquished by him..and the fact as well that she read every page, and she and i signed and read every page together....
I havnt been able to talk to her yet....but, this is something that will make for an interesting speakerphone call with me, her doctor or therapist, and her dad, and if needed, the lady who did the intake, and sat and worked out everything with us....

That seems to be another issue that should be dealt with while there...find out why...that is occurring...as it is...

Today is the baby squeaker Lexies birthday....i didnt get to sleep, borrowed a friends car and went shopping and did a cake order after i found that...her father would not be contributing or able to be around much this year....kind of like the last two...
So, even though some bills must be skimped on, i made damn sure...that she will enjoy the boxes more than the presents..as usual*L*
but, for a kid, she cant say shes got it bad...shes pretty spoiled...barbies galore....talking teaching books and animals, a dance mat, that flashes colors and you dance on the( i just hope it doesnt scare her)
and the wonder of all wonders...and the bane of my entire morning,,,,..,..
the 12 foot by 9 foot by 6 foot air flowing(yes, you have to leave the air pump ON, i discovered)...bounce pit with lil mesh doors and a slide...now if she just had some friends to bounce with.....whos up for it!

im spending my last few painful moments wrapping presents....and....just still trying to catch my breath.
hugs to everyone

[RAGNAR]

*huggers*

[Mysta]

hugs back tight, gnashing teeth and stuffin down tears,,,
how on earth do you figure out when enough is enough, and you cant takes no more?