Though I have been absent due to my own r/t reasons, I will interject here as well.
Your roleplay always wrong? Not in the least. Did I correct you when I saw something not in accordance with Tuchuk standards? Absolutely. I offered words of guidance to help you transition your roleplay into Tuchuk-- you were not of the sea or the city any longer.
No one is left behind. Period. Outriders would have remained with you and helped get you 'unstuck'. If you read the pages, then you'd have known that you would NOT have been allowed to remain on your own til Spring-- no Tuchuk Woman would, as no Tuchuk Woman is allowed to travel unescourted.
Nowhere to fit in? You only had an opening into roleplay through Shoko--more than what most people have. Perhaps you felt as if you were not a part of things simply because you consistently chose to not understand the ways of Tuchuk. A wagon of cordwood? In Tuchuk? Yes-- we prefer to use dung. It is a natural resource provided by Mother Bosk. Wood is best left to the Clans for use in trades and for wagons. While all of us as FW would like to believe we are capable of providing things in those hard moments-- how would you realistically have gotten a list of EVERYTHING that was needed... gathered it... and gotten wagons loaded and to Tuchuk, a Wagon Camp of thousands? While the sheer numbers of what would be needed would be staggering alone to contend with, you would have had to contend with the possibility of raiding parties.
We each of us had to scrounge out our own place upon coming to Tuchuk. Ask Shoko-- she is a prime example of a Woman who, while remaining true to herself, managed to carve out her own niche in MTC, and is rising through the ranks. There isn't one of us who hasn't had to indulge in some solo r/p. Quite honestly, it's good for character development.
So, please... do not blame Tuchuk. By consistently choosing to remain aloof from Tuchuk ways, you simply managed to alienate yourself. So we had roleplays already in place-- so what? How on earth does that effect the roleplay YOU are able to create with your fellow r/p'ers?
Bottom line is-- seems like you wanted to be -rescued- by Anhur. You generally gravitated his way whenever he was around, so... Congrats. You've made your choice.
I second Ubar's opinion.
Bullshit.