An apology

[Taryn]

For the past several weeks I have been non-existent in camp, though I know that r/t time always comes first, but that had nothing to do with my absence. It mainly had to do with things that I already had on my plate, I was trying to organize them so I could get them done in a way that wouldn't cause me to go completely bonkers, but in the end I figured out why I haven't been in that often. Fear. Fear that I wouldn't get the jobs I had laid out for myself and for camp, but I know now that I only take on what I know I can do and I should never second guess myself, besides, if I seem to fall under the water line, there are others in camp who I can turn to to help me out, I just have to learn how to ask for it and not get myself in deeper than I already might be.

I have a plan that I am about to set into motion that will help those of camp to better understand the basics of the healer's clan, it will take some time to go through all my notes, as there are pages upon pages of them from my research, but I think I can organize them in an easier manner for those outside of the clan to read and also when the time comes, they might feel a bit more confident in what they are doing. ~smiles~ I also have a rough outline for those I have talked with RAGNAR about in helping get more involved with camp life, and I have added one more who will need my help, as well as the help of others of our camp so this person doesn't feel left out of things that are going on.

Buddha, I got your note and the information will be sent via PM for you. Don't worry about anything, I do understand that time has a way of getting away from you, I have been a victim of that, well sort of, but it should be fixed now. I also have a few questions to send your way and possibly work something out. ~winks~

For my family, I now that summer time has a way of grabbing you and slinging you out into the beauty of summertime, but I would love it if some of you could find a way to come into camp and bring some life back into it. I know there are a few of you that have found that your computers, connection or other things have prevented you from doing such, I know when you are able to do so you will return home. Maybe I am feeling a little nostalgic for the old times when our camp was brimming with people, and summer time is the worst time for wanting to be stuck behind your computer screens, but I do think now is the time to return, make our home full and happy again.

In the next few days ahead, I will be in camp from the hours of 9p to the time I begin to doze off at the computer, which I hope will in time be after midnight or so, as I know we have many who are on the west coast or in between.

I am now going to head off to get things in motion on my end of things, then off to bed as I want to be asleep before the sun begins to peek over the horizon, because trying to sleep with the sun pouring into your bedroom and shining right onto your face is rather hard to sleep. So I bid you, my family, adieu until later. Know that I love each and everyone of you, as I have said before a million times or more, it is you, my family that has gotten me through some really tough patches in my life, if it weren't for you all, I don't think I would be here today typing this post, to be honest. Things have finally begun to go our way, but I know that things can quickly disappear in a blink of an eye, so I live each day as if it were my last.

All my love,
Taryn Iona/Di

[razz|n.o.i.r]

Well said True.
It has bothered me slightly in how empty things have been. Also with the understanding that rt dring summer is even more busy.
A little effort to make it in would go a long way for the camp we all claim to love so much.

To those reading this? Yes I was going to go on LoA. Though in typical female fashion my mind has been changed. -snicker-. It is time for those of us who are able to make it in to get in whenever we can.


As soon as I am able to be online on the laptop? Damn right you all will see me in Camp in the evenings once more.

Much love family,
Sarant/razz.

(now heads off to finish coffee to un-zombify myself)

[Salem]

Excepting the odd couple of nights here and there over the last few weeks where I have been busy with summer stuff, I have been around in camp on the hopes that others would be inclined to come in for a bit.
Agreed with said statements above. I am looking forward to seeing my family at home again soon.

[Buddha]

I'm not a camp member, but I'll stop by to say hello as well. Thinking I should start a new Clan. It'll be called "Clan of Grumpy Old Men". We sit around and drink paga, tell exaggerated stories of days gone by, admonish the young bucks on how easy they have it now a days, and tease the free women and kajira beyond mercy. A warning. Do not seek membership in this clan lightly. It takes a lifetime of extensive training to pull it off properly.

[C h e l s i a]

will be in tonight around 8-9 est

[Mercilayne]

As Rags knows I've been working some extra hours although that should be over in the next 4-5 weeks and I should be back on a semi normal schedule again after that.  As of now, I'm only on a couple of hours Wednesday and Sunday nights, Saturday night is theonly one that I really have to get any time to do things in camp.  Plus it's summer and have the Daughter all of the time.  Just hard to find online time. 

I will be in Camp as time and rt permit, just bear with me for another month or so and things should be normal again. 

I miss you all muchly. 

[Taryn]

I would like to apologize to any and all who have expected to see me in camp this past week and weekend. Due to the emotional roller coaster I have been on during this past week or so, it seems it all hit me at once and I have been barely able to get up and out of bed to go to the store for food and drink stuffs. I am experiencing what I went through this time last year, but it's not gotten to the level it was at last time, just a little below where it was. Today is the first day I have been able to eat and keep it down, so I am taking that as a good sign, but I still plan on taking it easy for a couple more days.

The other thing is that I am still using Ray's computer, as he has also been dealing with his own emotional roller coaster, as well as trying to heal from his knee surgery a week ago last Thursday, the day before we received the news about his mother's death. but things seem to be getting a little easier each day that passes. The day I am dreading is when the vial of his mother's cremains arrive, but it is something I am prepared for and I am hoping I will be able to be strong enough to get him through it again. He said that if he feels up to it he will work on fixing my computer and allowing me to use it once again, stupid malware downloading without my permission and shutting down every program I was using causing me to lose a lot of work, but we are hoping that I didn't lose everything I was working on. -crosses fingers-

To all those who are in need of a physical, I will post an announcement of what time I will be in the room the night I come in or if things are going well, a few hours before hand, as with the stomach/kidney issue I am dealing with, I can feel great all day then suddenly get hit with a wave of sickness that will knock me out for the rest of the day and night and when I get up the next day, the cycle begins all over again. I am still not sure what is going on, I am looking into various specialists that might help me figure everything out, or might lead me back to square one, but I have to get started because I seriously can not handle feeling like I have been, nor being able to eat anything (though I have lost a bit of weight again, but as my former primary care doctor told me, this is NOT the way to do things). The medications I am taking for the stomach part of this illness helps to a point, but knocks me out about 30 minutes after I take it and I end up sleeping until the next dose, but if I don't need it, I am up til the wee hours of the morning and end up on a really wonky sleeping schedule that takes me a couple of days to get out of, and during that time, things start to go off kilter again. It's getting old fast, so I am going to try and fix the problem if possible and in the process help curb my frustration levels that have caused me to snap or yell at Ray for doing the smallest of things wrong.

Anyway, I am hoping to be in tonight, Sunday night after the show I watch is over, which should be around 11p east coast time. Again, if things aren't going well, I will post something to let you all know, but if there isn't anything posted, it means I will be in camp as scheduled and will get as many of you through your physicals. I would like to say thank you for the patience you have had with my flakiness, but I am hoping that things will straighten out in the next couple of days, as long as I keep my stress levels down to where they should be.

Love you my family -huggles-

[Mercilayne]

Take care of yourself.  -huggles- 

[Taryn]

I am not going to be able to make it in tonight after all. Seems my body has decided to add to my troubles with a fever, so I am going to go back to bed, take tylenol, my other meds and just go to bed early, though I already slept most of the day am thinking it's my body trying to get rid of whatever is attacking me.

True, I remembered that you called earlier today, but barely. I will drop you a note via the board PM to let you know what is going on and such. Love ya True and I am sorry I didn't get to talk to you earlier. -hugggles-