So just as a ways of filling in...
aisling is going through something right now with her rt relationship and an overabundance of stresses. Though it may seem a little weak, this girl is feeling out of sorts and unsure and her focus is all over the charts and because she's only averaging about 2 hours of sleep a night, she is just a complete mess.
This one knows that she's not the most regular participator as it is, but as she's trying to mend fences and fix that and become a more active role in the Family. It's what's in her heart and she doesn't want to lose it, but yet this one doesn't feel she would be useful if she cannot dedicate her complete focus.
If this angers anyone, please forgive this girl. she just needs some time to adjust and work things out.
xoxox
aisling