breaking my silence

[Alex]

Well family as most of you might have noticed I am bitterly gone a lot lately. I have good reasons. About a month back I lost 3 close members of my family and extended family in about a weeks time. I am fine my family is fine as time does heal all.  This weekend is my annual bash so it really is fitting that this will be a weekend of remembrence and looking to a new future an open and happy one.

All of this has made me look at a few things in my life differently. Rp has been a giant help for me in the past few years in teaching me to become more of a man and a human than any person could have ever thought. Simply being mtc has made me a stronger person in so many ways that most would not realize.  So I plan on being back shortly.  So those of you that have been on the ride of my short bus I thank you all for simply being family.

You never really realize how much the MTC family means to a person until a simple I'm makes hard times into good ones. 

So thankyou family

[Daigon]

Everyone has there moments.... Times of Happiness or Sadness, times of freedom or hella busy. As a family, We should be there for one another always, to be the rock and solid place that a person needs at times. Wapike, I myself have been out of the loop but have returned, I lok forward to You coming Home Brother. Always and Forever, a shoulder to lean on or an ear to listen. I'm here if anyone needs to vent.


   - Daigon

[razz|n.o.i.r]

-leaves a hug for you-...Was getting concerned. It is sad news, and I'm sorry. Though to know you are around, and alright. Is a relief.

Agreed on all fronts, Wapike. -nods-

[Medi]

I am really sorry for your loss, Wapike, and will add you to my prayers and thoughts.  I loved r/p with you, and look forward and hope that the Panthers and Tuchuk meet again.

Please stay strong, and know that MTC is here for you, and so many love you and will stand by you, it is your Home Stone.

(There is also a member of PTJ who is in your corner).

[Lilac]

am so sorry to hear of your loss.. -leaves lots of hugs-

[RAGNAR]

My condolences GS. Hang in there. Life is not easy, but we do grow each day.

[prism {*RgR*1*}]

*kicks you in the shins and then when you bend down to grab it, sets a BRONCOS hat on your head*..

feel the love...


*grins softly*
woobie

[familure{TD}]

~snugs~

[Shylina Marie]

you and I have already had discussion.  just remember.  Stand strong, don't let your heart be troubled, your not alone in this world.

and enjoy the weekend. 

you know where to find me after tomorrow.  two more days of pools... yay me.

[Mercilayne]

My condolences on your losses Wapike.   You and yours have been added to my thoughts and prayers.  Take care of yourself and know that we are here for you if you need us.   -hugs-

[Alex]

Thanks Everyone...

Two were blessings in disguise... the third was sad...

my Aunt had been Battling bone cancer and finally got to heal upstairs...

The second was my PE teacher, whom has 4 kids... 2 girls 2 boys.. the 2 oldest are normal individuals, the younger 2 are simply amazing... Kevin and Misty are indivuals with DownSyndrome.. and if any of you are familar with Rodney Carrington, he makes a jokes of you cannot have a lil stupid a little of ignorance or a little of Down Syndrome.. well they do.. they work harder than any person you could meet live on there own now and are simply amazing.. Kevin would give Ragnar in the Pure size of there heart departmeant as he is a very speciel person in my life,, and i might add he loves his beer..lol


the third a cousin she was larger than life as a kid and lost all her weight and ended becoming a local fair queen she was very beautiful and got to show her inner beauty with her outer beauty, well she lost the weight and did it the wrong way, well after 20 or mores years of not keeping any food inside of her she finally passed on.. it was a shock

BUT!!!

There is a silver ligning as there always is, she no longer suffers and My Mother and My Uncle spoke to each other for the first time in over 15 years.. I have been in the middle of this for most of that time.. so that is somehing I do like out of the entire deal... I would rather have my cousin back but  i will take that as a present from her from above.. to finally have the family of mine all talking and being one whole cohesive unit... much like i have here.. Being MTC has helped me realize we may have disagreements.. have strong feelings, but we are one... we are a whole and now My family is the same.. it has helped me in more ways.. *winks to GPa* I learned and told my mom that it is easy to be vengeful, it is easy to hate, it is easy to want your vengence... but it is hard to let go of your hate, it is hard to learn to love.. it is hard to forget, and even harder to fogive, but if one person simply one person takes to time to love, to forgive and to extend an olive branch then that is what it is to truelly live and to be human to embrace all those gifts that are so hard and that what I have done through all of you..

but anyway... Woobie.. the hat burned in your hand as soon as it go near me...

Thank you all

Iron Nuts will be back soon