(originally posted by Mistress Taryn)
Being in one of those moods, especially after reading Kar's words, reminded me of this thread buried underneath all the riff raff of months past... I am not one to be very open with my feelings or thoughts... lately though that seems to have changed, maybe Amber is right and there is something in the air, or it's me and a reflection of what I have gone through since this time last year...
RAGNAR - everyday I am lucky to have the experience of knowing you, listening and learning from the simple words you say... My first impression of you 2 years ago was fear and awe, the fear for reasons now known, but the awe was from watching you from afar, to afraid to step forward and show the real me... it took time, but you allowed me to remove the mask I wore for too long of a time, and become who I really am... You also are a dear friend to me, one I will cherish for many decades to come...
Karanis - though you aren't around as much as you want to be, the time you are, you bring a ray of bright sunshine to the camp... My first impression of you was straight out fear... when you entered camp, I would do anything to not find myself in your path, you weren't the type of FW I was expecting to see, instead I saw a Woman with authority and strength beyond my wildest dreams, and that scared the living beejeesus out of me... but through time I got to know a side to you that you only show to those who are family, and that fear slowly ebbed away, and for that I am glad, because I don't think I could hide myself anymore without you finding me and pulling me out into the open...
deeeeee-mon - you have always known who I was behind the mask, how you knew I have no idea... but when I hit a rut or a rather large block in the road, you were there with your friendship and words that helped me through... I didn't get to really know you until this last year, and there are times I wish I had paid a bit more attention, maybe I would have removed that mask sooner, or maybe not... I miss having you around, with you being so busy doing more important things for yourself, maybe I am being selfish, but I miss the time we could sit and talk, there are so many things I want to tell you, to share with you...
talena - ~pokes the hibernating bear with a looooooooooong stick and smiles~ I miss the burrito, the laughter, the bouncy and happy feelings I got when you entered camp... you are never far from my thoughts, as I hear your soft snores from the wagon lot next to mine... wake up soon, I know the camp is getting a little restless without a talena terror running amok... I am sure that even a short visit would bring smiles to the faces of so many family members, and also maybe help spark the mischief bug in several that has seemed to have gone into hibernation... ~hugs you as you sleep~
Amber - ~and velcro kitty, laughs~ you worry me at times, but you are much like your mother and father it's scary, the world of Gor thought they knew what their children would grow up to be like, they were a bit off, because I don't think anyone was quite ready for you when you arrived... you keep us on our toes, give me a chance to remember times past with a smile and allow me to bring out a side of me not many knew existed... and I don't think any really knew...
Nicolas - for appearing when I least expected it, for lending me an ear at a time I most desperately needed it, for showing me that I don't make foolish decisions in trusting another, when my trust had been sorely misused and tossed aside like last weeks leftovers... I could as well continue to thank you for the friendship you have offered me, and again it wouldn't cover a tenth of what you have shown me...
and to the rest of my cherish and very much loved family - I could go on for pages telling each and everyone of you how much you have touched my life and allowed me to be the person I am now... each one of you has helped bring out something I thought I lost forever when I returned to MTC... happiness, laughter, stability, and last but not least, the ability to stand on my own two feet and walk down the path that I chose for myself to take, wobbling a bit here and there, but never falling, because none of you would allow me to... I have said many times before, you all are more real family to me than my own, you care for me and my health, you help me when things seem to be crumbling around me, you do things a family ought to do for one another, without turning around and expecting some kind of payment in return... thank you, for showing me that that was one thing I didn't lose forever, my family...