i really dont know where to begin, all of you have been so good to me over the past few years and that makes this all the harder to do and to explain. first i want to say .. I LOVE YOU ALL DEARLY...this is goodbye for solli, she wont be back and is being shelved, for now, i just cant bring myself to sit in a place where i am supposed to be happy and carefree and do nothing but cry behind the scenes, to much over the years has taken its toll on me mentally and physically, it isnt fair to anyone i come in to contact with to be subjected to the mistrust and feelings of being unworthy that i have and it isnt fair to put myself through the pain any more, and it isnt fair to my husband and son to have to deal with me after i have been sitting here and crying and becoming more depressed,
Rags, i know You are going to say to just go on loa, and i have my reasons for not doing that, this way, when and if i come back, i can start new, fresh, clean , even if it means being a kettle again, i love You and woobies so much, you both are so special, i do want to stay in touch, i dont want to lose all contact with either of you, loves You kisssssssssssses
Muse, and OE, what can i say, but thank you both so much for believing in me, and taking time to try and help me find my way again, even tho it was a waste of You time, time You could have been putting towards someone who was worth it, i love yo uboth dearly and will never lose touch again, you both are more to me then just chars on a computer, i know we spoke about this and you tryed to get me to just take time away, but i believe this is the best way to go about this, this way i can come back and be the true me again, the fiery brat of the tuchuk,
my sisters, all of you had best be good, i love each of you with all my heart and feel i was so blessed to be able to share your lives, even if it was only for a short time,
lure, my twin, my heart of hearts, you will never totally lose me hun, i am but a message away,
dee, thank you for listening and advising me, you will always be very special to me,
Taryn, Sahara, Yaya, Sidona, Kar, all of the Mistresses, You were all more then just Mistresses to me, you were my friends and will always feel close to you, who knows, maybe when and if i come back, ill be more of a sister then a slave -chuckles-
Pheonix, Teggie, Raz, and all the Masters, each of You are a special force in my life, each of You have given me something no one else could, i love ya all,
Pheonix, i will be sending You a private message, please be on the watch for it,
now that i cant see through the tears any more, im gonna go ahead and post this, just remember ALL of YOU, i love you, cherish you and i will probably one day be back, if i am welcome,
solli/essa
