just two weeks of absolute hell? yes, of course it could get worse, and yes, many others have it far worse than I do, .....
but wholly sheep shit, or should I say....wholly vulo shit......
temp relapse and had to go back to MD.....again........
everything is fine......
another ER visit..........more tests.........another CT scan........
everything is fine.....
one pharm tech quits, another is hired, another quits, another is hired....
guess who gets to do the training?........bingo.....me....
ex is being an as about our child again........and again.....
we store the jeep and work trailer up at the land which is a mile up the road from where I am, and while my ex knew we were spending the night at the inlaws, he went and slashed all the tires on our jeep, and J's work trailer..........to the tune of $1000 damage........not covered by insurance by because we only have liability on the jeep......and cant charge off the work trailer tires because its a camper that has been stripped and changed into a work trailer, and isnt really on the company books......soooooooooooooooo......you cant get the kind of tires anymore that we had on the jeep.......the one's J wants are back ordered for up to six months......
AND WE HAVE NO PROOF that jackass did it.....slice marks.......no prints, no tire marks cause we've had no snow, and no security up there yet cause we're still building......
then at work I get in trouble and have two people backstab me when all's I did was try to make both of them happy and try to keep THOSE two from NOT fighting........
then on my way to work yesterday, the late shift......I'm on my way down our granite stairs....which have a lovely glazing of ice, salt, and sand on them........and I fall then ENTIRE way down...........tail bone? what tail bone? I have tail BONES....and had sand and salt and grime and crap all in my hair and on my clothes, had to take another shower, and was an hour late to work......
*just sighs*
simply put.........I'm fucking exhausted.
nothing really bad, nothing dangerous, nothing lethal, nothing life altering.........but just.....*sighs again*
just tired........
I swear I'll be in when I can...........
I just feel like I'm being pulled in fifty million different directions and there just isnt enough of me to go around.....
I'll be fine, I'll get out of this mood........just wanted to let you guys know, I'm not blowing you off on purpose, and I need to be focused on Kar when I AM online...... and right now, simply put........I'm just not, and with the time I've put into Her, I just cant afford to make any tired, uncalculated, or simply not thought through mistakes.....
but I do love you all and miss you *hugs and kisses*
and hope everyone had a great holiday......
Love, Karanis
*rubs my eyes, blinks a few times...
