Okay, so here's the update on me...I'm going to Idaho for my grand parents 60 somethingth reunion...this year will probably be my grandfather's last, though we've said that for a few years now. Difference is, this year, he's saying he want's to stop the dialysis. Not good for a person who's kidneys are almost totally gone and is on dialysis three times a week and still pulling off a few litres a pop. I can't say I blame him, he's misserable and has little quality of life and doesn't seem to have the drive, the energy, and the wherewithall to change that, so I stand by his decision. What ever makes him happy. The point of that little speal is that I may have to go again suddenly. I'm hoping he'll wait until fall to stop the dialysis, otherwise it will be probably no more than 3 weeks before I have to go back (not being selfish, but I truely do hope it's not over gathering). Right now, I'm packing to head up there, leaving tonight and returning Weds. with my Grandmother to give her a break from him. She's been taking care of him without the slightest of a breather for almost 10 years now and the load keeps getting heavier and heavier. My father is going to stay up there with my grandfather and my mom and I are bringing my grandmother back down here so that we can spend some time with her and treat her to some nice lunches and a break from the heart breaking and back breaking work of caring for a loved one.
THEN, my parents have agreed to help me move all of my stuff into the new house once we get back. One lil problem. I have this little back bill from the cable company...small, but it prevents me from getting my computer connected to the internet for an additional couple of weeks. Not too major, but it will keep me away a bit longer...so, as of now, I'm planning on very scarce access to the internet until the middle of June. I will do my damndest to check the boards (which would be a novelty for me of late).
OH! and did I tell ya'll I'm a graduate nurse? I have the largest collection of useless degrees on earth!!!! I have 4 associates degrees, but one of them actually landed me a good job with double my pay! I just have to take my state boards, which I'm scheduling for Thurs when I get back from Idaho, so if anyone has any extra prayers, good wishes, positive energy...I'll take anything I can get.
I love you my family and someday this whirlwind life will slow down for me...I'm trying to organize it to happen soon! Can't wait for gathering, it will be SO nice to get together with everyone and leave my chaos ridden life behind.
Kendra/Sah
