What ever happened to ariella{*Arlon*} anyhow....

[ariella {*Arlon*}]

This has been a long time coming, and I should have done this sooner. I did not mean to just abandon everyone and leave without telling anyone. After the gathering, things at home got pretty bad and we were in a family crisis, divorce was mentioned a few times. I knew things needed to change. Around that time, my Master found out he was expecting a baby on his end, and we decided that things could not continue to go on the way they were. I discovered that divided loyalties did not work. I was neglecting my family, spending a lot of time on the computer. I wish I could take back that time I spent  and spent it with my son and husband. I was very depressed, and I needed to put my character to rest, because it was not just a character anymore to me. The lines of reality and fantasy became blurred somehow, and it became too real in my head. It became an addiction for me, I would check the message boards several times per day, and check if anyone was in camp.

I am glad I got a chance to meet everyone at Gathering. Don't get me wrong, for someone who knows the difference, this can be a good creative outlet and a lot of fun. For me, I took it too seriously and became ariella.

I am much better now. I quit cold turkey, got on some anti-depressants, started exercising again, and my husband and I are doing much better. I have started college again for graphic design, and am doing well. I have earned a 4.0 for both quarters that I have attended so far, and am loving school. I have become a better mother. Before, I would rush though the bedtime story just so I could hurry and get on the computer. Now, I take my time reading my son his story and singing him a nite nite song. I spend more time playing with him too. I have made my butterfly garden beautiful again. I have taken up photography. Please check out my online gallery at www.birdloverkim.deviantart.com

I just wanted to let everyone know that I was ok. Tim (Arlon) knew but I had just left everyone else in the dark. I wish you all the best and it was nice knowing you. Good luck and maybe I will peek in sometime. For now, I need to spend some time in real time, because I neglected that for a while.

[Serinna]

I for One know what it is you are talking about. This room... this Home... this Family understands when rt must be put first. you first had to realize that it became an addiction. after that, you got yourself back in line with your husband and son. thats what matters. I hope all works out for you. and if there is anyone that does not understand that rt must be put first... then they should not be online, but trust Me when I say that I do not think that there is one person in MTC that can nor will say that they do not understand. I wish you much luck with your schooling

Julie aka Serinna

[Nexhias]

R/t is always first, honey.  Your r/t family must be priority.  We love you and support you, and we are all pleased to hear that things are on the up and up for you.  *S*

[RAGNAR]

Take care and do pop in sometime.

Keep in touch.

*Huggers*

[prism {*RgR*1*}]

*hugs you, now dubbing you the velveteen rabbit*

real ... is well... real.. and far more important that pretend anything..

*hugs*
woobie

[NightStorm]

ok this is flame  my puter has decided that it will not work for me...sighs....



i know what you are going through...i have you on messager if you ever want to say hello or need someone to talk to........like my family has already said.. rt comes frist we will be here . smiles and leaves you hugs and kisses

flame

[familure{TD}]

~leaves you a few hugs~

sounds like you've made the right choices hon. we'll be here when you want to drop by~s

[Raziel]

Well, suffice it to say, that the choice you are making is the right one.  People can get absorbed into Gor, but you need to draw that line and you have done so.  Real life and family are most important and we all understand that.  The key to everything is support and you have our support on the matter and we hope things do work out for the best in the long run.  We will always be here for support as you are still family to us.  It is good to know things are going good for you.  Do hope to see you from time to time and keep us updated.

Raz