~a scrap of parchment tacked on the wall~
I go by Virtue. Many of you know me while many do not. I write here today in regards to my actions since my arrival in Tuchuk. I once thought that I only owed my apologies to a select few. But in truth - I owe apologies to the entirety of my Home and my Family.
I have acted less than a Man of Gor...I have acted less than a Warrior of Gor and even more so less than how any person of Gor should act. I've pointed my spear at Amber. I've chased after her knowing full well she was taken. I've thrown her help back in her face as I have done with several of Tuchuk that tried to help me. I've snapped at sin. I've streaked through camp. But last night...I pulled steel over a matter that was but harmless play by Shoko. At the time I did not know it was her and thought it to be one of the slaves that were crowded before her. But even so - It was not a matter to pull steel over no matter who had thrown the pebble.
I have acted foolishly, recklessly, and selfishly on more than one occasion. For that I am sorry. That is no way for a Man or Warrior of Gor to conduct himself. So many of you have shown me kindness and patience...But I know that, that patience is wearing thin. I've screwed up...For that I am sorry. Some have said that I have a temper...In truth I do not. Some things hit me the wrong way depending on the state of mind I am stuck in at that moment and that's when my fuse breaks and yes...I do act very stupidly. But there is no excuse for my actions. I need to learn better self-control and I will do so.
I apologize and beg forgiveness of my Home and my Family. I do not believe I deserve such forgiveness though...I have not yet proven myself worthy of such nor proved myself to my Home and Family. But I will do so and prove through word, deed, act, and decision that I am a true Warrior and Man of Gor...Not the reckless fool I've proved myself to be so many times...I thank everyone for their patience and kindness.
I also apologize on behalf of my Brothers actions last eve. He is my Brother, Sleen. I carry the weight of his doings as well since he is my family and comrade.
-- With Honor
- Virtue