I just wanted to say a few things, for I have just spent the better part of three or so hours going through this entire thread and feeling my heart break and beat with love at the same time.
It seems that no matter how wonderful life is, there are always the ups and downs that everyone has to fight through, or lose. I, myself, will probably never openly post my problems and ask for prayers, and not because they would not be needed or appreciated, but because that's the type of person I am. I will say this, for someone who does not have religious beliefs, but does believe there is something more out there, my wishes and hopes for saftey and recoveries will always be with everyone here, regardless if posted or not. For I have never seen, in my entire online r/p days, in all the realms, any who care so much for those that they indulge spending their time with in a v/t setting. As it is has been made clear to me that MTC is so much more than just v/t friendships the more time I spend here.
As time goes on, and I learn of such things that compells MTC to be as it is, I will admit, I am starting to think of some of you as closer to me than my r/t family, and perhaps that is just as sad to admit as much as it is a compliment to those I speak of, but what a group you all make yourselves as one! I couldn't be happier to have been dragged here by a gamer...*winks*...and I can tell you now, that even though I will be disappearing for stretches of time, that my heart remains in MTC, for all of MTC....
Well wishes in the best of ways for ~EVERYONE~ that needs them, or will need them later on down the road, or don't need them at all.
Melanie
aka
Nikki
PS...Don't let those assholes you call Doctors push you around...I REFUSE TO BE THEIR GUINEA PIG!!! THAT'S WHY IT IS CALLED MEDICAL PRACTICE!!...NOT MEDICAL CERTAINTY! You have a right to know, bust their nuts until they can't stand you!! FORCE them to tell you, AND MAKE THEM DO THEIR JOBS TO THEIR FULLEST CAPACITY, it's you're right!!!...but then again...I'm one to say...FUCK 'EM ALL!!....