Today when I got there, they were cleaning and changing his bedding. he had gotten the first dialysis treatment and it went well they said. they didnt give me a time frame when he will get the next. The doctor came in and explained to me that his blood pressure was up, which is good.. but she did advise that it is only up because the pressure raising medicine that they are giving him is very strong. extremely. She said that if he had not been on that high of strength, his pressure of 80/40 would not have sustained him through the night. now it is up to 107/70 but again, only because they have him on the high strength med.
She said the kidneys weren't functioning and his lungs were not functioning right and that there was tissue damage in the organs because of the sepsis and because he had lain long unresponsive. Basically, the longer he laid on the floor unresponsive, the more damage that could be expected. I asked her if she meant because he lays around a lot on his computer, or about the longer he lays in the hospital..She said.. no because "they found him unresponsive" and gave me one of those "are you stupid " looks. She said "do you understand unresponsive?"
Oh yes ma'am I understand unresponsive. I never wanted to learn it like this... Who did the woman think found him? the man on the freakin' moon? Did paramedics magically appear and find him unresponsive after I called them while he was playing frisbee??
She was pretty much telling me that because I didn't recognize he was on the floor and do something (because I was asleep) more damage had happened than would have if I had been paying better attention to a man with a fever.
She said he is making progress on fighting the infection, slow but baby steps.. whether he pulls out of the damage will remain to be seen. She again suggested that he will probably have to be placed into a long term care facility. She said they will be keeping him sedated, and he will have to keep the breathing tube and the feeding tubes.. until further notice.
I sit there and I talk to him and I share things about the day and I don't know if they are getting through.. I have been kicking myself for not knowing that he was that sick, and now I can add that I am the reason his organs are damaged.
His main nurse is the only one that gets that he does better when I am holding his hand and talking to him while she tries to do something. She will say, okay girl, we gotta suction out his mouth, and I will explain to him and tell him to hold still and hold his hand and he still fights but not as much.
I just keep praying that God's will be done, and then add nicely that my vote is for him to be healed.. I thank you all for your prayers and thoughts. please keep them going.
love woobie
